I can't do the carrick with closed eyes but I can get it without a tutorial

Yeah, it is pretty handy sometimes too, especially when you're bending some line toghether and you need it to shoot back on itself.
Any ways, here's a carrick bend in a loop that will be my lanyard soon.

The loop at the bottom is going to be the bight that attaches to my tool.

Now, this 'aint the best picture to show how you finish it but you take your bitter ends and go over your stays (that little loop) and then into the center hole of the carrick bend. Do this with both ends. Over the stay, under the mess, through the middle and up.

One through...

The other one through. Notice my finger on the bight on the bottom.

Pull it tight and clean it up by working the bight/stays down.
You don't need it real tight when it is done but you can heave around a bit and get it that way if you need to.

I also roll it between my fingers a bit and let it work it's way together on it's own.
You should end up with this:

I like to use this to start and end a longer braid or plait of some kind. It also looks good on just a straight lanyard. Hope this is helpful to some. I know there are better tutorials on the net but this one is mine!

This knot is tough at first but after you do it about 12 times you'll get it. I found the key is the carrick bend to start with and finishing it right.